More and more often, I make lists, write poems, take notes as I walk, of all the things I will miss when I leave this place. We have reasons for moving on, but there are so many reasons to stay. The reasons are things that don’t belong to me, don’t care about me at all, but it’s enough to know they are there and to see them from time to time.

I mean the birds and animals I see around the September house or hear in the quiet of the night, the evening and the early morning: roe deer, hares, foxes, red squirrels, hedgehogs, coypus, polecats, martens, little owls, barn owls, tawny owls, a pair of elanion blanc, red kites, buzzards, sparrowhawks, kestrels, and today, a hobby. And Theresa the toad who lives in the sage bush. Where else will I find so much magic?

September thoughts

In the first part of the night,
when the moon was light, the sky aglow,
whisper-wind sweet and low, a hare sat

beneath the dark hedge, in the dark grass
where the deer pass. And I saw
the pulse of the ancient law of the life stream,

the heart that beats, blood-bright and clear,
in hare and deer. I heard it in the silent flight
of the owl, the slight, slender pad of the fox,

answering the trailing wail of the vixen’s call,
and I wished to hold it all in my cupped hands,
enfold it in embroidered bands of eternity.


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11 responses to “September thoughts”

  1. Part of it will stay embedded in you I think. But I feel the pull of it myself through all you have written about it. (K)

    1. It’s not all sweetness and light though. There’s a tension I won’t miss. For six months of the year I feel it all around, never knowing when a hunter and his dogs will come creeping around. There’s one out there now somewhere. I heard him call his dog. Just waiting for the sound of gunshot.

      1. I remember a friend of mine who grew up in a rural area dreading hunting season.

    1. Making lists, stringing words. Maybe it will stave off Alzheimer’s for a while 🙂

  2. this is so beautiful loved your last line -‘enfold it in embroidered bands of eternity.’

    1. I’m glad you liked that thought, Beth. I wish I could protect it all.

  3. I agree with Kerfe–though I know about the hunters and how you suffer when it gets cold. I don’t think you’d move to a city, so I hope you’ll be able to find different magic wherever you do end up.

    1. We’d never move to a city. But I don’t know where we’ll find that suits. Big adventure on the horizon xx

  4. Enjambment is a gift, and you’ve displayed your talent for it in this poem; I’m pulled through from start to finish. Much the same as your thoughts of leaving or staying.

    1. Thanks Marilyn xx Those rhymes I find obsessive once the poem stars that way. To carry it through the whole poem becomes a necessity. I’m pleased you like it. The pulling in two directions is painful.

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